I received the news as soon as it was announced that she was no longer with us and rushed to the hospital immediately.
Everyone grieved, cried and missed her.
There's nothing more to say.
But her magic lives on.
Scores of people from the media had called and asked if I could lend them my thoughts with regards to arwah.
I don't know why, but I often declined, unless it was absolutely necessary and if the request came from a media person who has always been supportive of arwah Yasmin... who has always been there for Yasmin.... who has loved Yasmin and understood what she was going through and what she had tried to do.
I will not do it if I instinctively know that the media person was merely taking advantage of the situation, in order to get higher ratings in their radio or TV programs or higher sales for their newspaper or print media.
It is because of papers like Kosmo! which had so efficiently instigated hatred and encouraged fitnah that I refrain myself from making too many a public comment.
Sorry, if I am very selective.
I think I should be.
Because Min deserves nothing less than my love and loyalty.
Forgive me if I do not share my personal feelings with the public.
It is only because I want to be selfish and keep Min to myself.
I am still grieving and I am still mourning.
A huge part of my being is hollow because the very person who taught me how to love has left us.